If you have lived, you already left a dent in the universe. It doesn’t matter if it is a big dent or a small dent. Have you had children? They’ll be the backbone of the new generation, and many generations that’ll come, you’ll be forgotten in 100 years after your death, but the foundation you have laid is your legacy. You don’t have children and have no plans? You also have changed the universe somehow. Your work, your interactions with the environment, somehow, you have participated and made the future viable. Human society is like a giant organism, an individual cell may appear unimportant, but all of them are needed for the organism to live.
Therefore, I am doing my part in my own way. Call it coping, unambitious or whatever, it truly doesn’t matter to me. What I want in life is to live. There is a feeling of freedom when you realize there is no need to grind, there is no need to prove anything to anyone. You can just be yourself, enjoy people’s company, nature, tasty food, a good book, a good game. Every single moment counts, every single second I want it to last a little longer.
And I feel I have enough. My car is good enough, my house is enough, my gym gains, my rating on chess, my marriage and so on. It doesn’t mean I couldn’t try to be better at chess, or buy a better car, it just means I feel happy with what I got and if I improve, then nice, if not, that is okay. Even if I lose everything tomorrow, it is okay, I have my life and my mind, my inner citadel, and that is enough for me. The world is a beautiful place, if you know where to look.
I turned 30 this month, which may explain this post. I’ve been thinking a lot about life recently. The only thing I feel is gratitude.